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So the geog essay is finally done after 3 days of hard work. i am not entirely sastified with it but i did my best and God will do the rest. (: Days are becoming better because i have really learn to trust more in God. Each step seems easier even though i face new challenges everyday.

Haha. i cant believe i ate instant noodles for 3 days in a row.
it is time to start on my PS essay and the computing essay too.

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ooooh! i am watching full house all over again
summer scent and autumn tale made me too depressed. :(

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Your perfect love drives away all my fears

Recovered after two days of sleep. Wedding Day must have tired me to death. Trying to finish my geog essay now with about 1000 words to go. J2 is barely done at all and i have only 2 more days. i think it should be more than enough time since i am going to try to complete half of it by tonight. After this, i will be left in one more essay before exams. :(

darn it, i need to start studying soon.
so far behind in my readings.

just started watching summer scent, this korean drama. it is darn good and i cant wait to finish it. :DDDDD

time to take a nap.

One word and one picture. (:

Tired.

good night world. :D

help me to feel beautiful in your eyes
each time expectations weigh me down
i get lower and lower

i dont want to change to become someone i hate

spent lots of time with the family today -shopping and packing up the house.Bro's wedding is tml and the house is beautifully decorated. it is going to be a great day tml even though i am going to be so tired. oh wells, weddings are meant to be beautiful and perfect. i am really happy for my brother.

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going to start doing essay on sunday then.
i am going to slack for abit now.
time to go watch some Tv.

more updates on sunday. (:

hide me now under your wings
cover me within your mighty hands

okay, i love this new layout. i am so not going to change for a really long time because i am actually quite sick of coding. it always takes up too much time. (: i love this, i love this. :D christian skins always makes me happy.

anyway, this is only suitable on IE and not on FF.

today was a good day.
it was a really fufilling day because i overcame my fears of going for a certain tutorial class.today was a good closure and i am glad that Your love came over me. Without You, i dont think i would have courage to go through today.

be still and know that i am God
i will be exalted among the nations
i will be exalted in the earth

Busy week ahead which explains my lack of updates. Bro's wedding is this saturday and the family has been really busy preparing for the wedding. Bought my gown, shoes and accessories and manage to grab a nice top for church wedding. i cant wait. :DDDDD

after 6 hours of shopping today, i am exhausted. qing's bdae celebration was today and we had a good time bonding and eating dinner together. so i am back at home, trying to start on my geog essays. OMG OMG, i am running short of time.

i still need to go through what i need to say for PS tutorial. i havent been doing my readings and i have no idea how to attempt the questions at all. i am going to be screwed on thurs. i keep telling myself that it is only 2 hours and it will be over before i know it. at most, i would just get scolded. :(

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okay 12.48 am. :(
time to go back writing.

mmmm, it was a pretty okay day
nothing much to say other than i am stll feeling ...
but i am glad i had courage to somehow step back.

played dota for the first time today
it was pretty fun and was rather entertaining.
ended up playing 3 games today. :(

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time to start on the essays
hell week, i promise
lots of fears to overcome (:

Lord, you are in control
i want to focus on what you will want me to do.

But if i go to the east, he is not there;
if i go to the west, i do not find him.
When he is at work in the noth, i do not see him;
when he turns to the south, i catch no glimpse of him
But he knows the way that i take
when he has tested me, i will come forth as gold
- Job 28:8-10

i am going to face things.
whatever has happened in the past 3 weeks needs
to come to an end. life isnt smooth sailing but
i want my heart to keep doing what is right for God
even when i fail, i want to pick myself up
i want to 'constantly' go back to him. i am surrendering
once again. no matter how unworthy i feel sometimes, i need
to realise that your mercies are neverending and that you
will always open your arms to me no matter how far away
i am. (:

i am coming back to the heart of worship.

the hair is bad , bad bad .
i dont have a month to hide at home
i got school on monday!
oh darn it, i am so dead!!!!! :(

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reading all 40 groups of tourism proposals in Singapore
somehow, they are getting kind of entertaining
some of their ideas are plain lame and rather repetitive
but there are really some good ones.
it looks like we arent the worst. (:

It was a good day. (:

one lecture and school ended. went down to orchard to shop with the church people. bought one top today and we went to watch music and lyrics. it was such a sweet and funny movie. i fell in love with two songs that were sung inside the movie. well, managed to download the songs and it has been on repeat mode for the past two hours.

thanks to rach.
finding songs will be so much easy from now onwards.

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God is good, i believe you are
i am beginning to pick myself up from when i fell
i am coming back to You.

All the earth will declare
That Your love is everywhere
The fields will exalt Seas resound

Hear the trees Joyful cry
Praising You and so will I
A new song I'll sing
Lord I will Glorify and
bless Your holy name

the long bus rides helped today
the long conversations i had with YOU

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

i just fall on my knees and i try to pray
in the silence, i can hear him say...

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thanks Ziig for the advices
i am a whole lot better. (:
everything is going to be alright.

ARGH!
what i had before and what i have now was never by my own hands. it was created and it was meant to hurt.how i wish i could close my eyes and tell myself it isnt true.

everything that i have read and re-read becomes clearer
it was never meant to be in the first case

tsk tsk. it was a rather long day today even though time passed by really quickly. i slept at 2 last night after doing some essay writing. i was so stupid. i did not save the document the first time round and had to retype everything. :/

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set the balloons off at the break of dawn
one by one till they are gone. (:

i feel like i am wasting my life away.

argh! jeanette, stop emo-ing. :/

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landing in london
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Lord, i feel so far away..

a thousand times i failed
your mercy remains
should i stumble again,
i'm caught in your grace

everlasting your light will
shine when all else fades
neverending your glory
goes beyond all fame

my heart and my soul
i give your control
consume me from the inside out
let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love you from the inside out

...

Landing in London
a song for you, a song from the heart

perhaps too much thinking and too much expectations have weighed me down. i'm pending down everything and putting my heart focused. God is in control and i surrender all. (:

And when the night falls in
around me and I don't
think I'll make it through
I'll use your light to guide the way
Cuz all I think about is you

And all these days I spend away
I'll make up for this I swear
I need your love to hold me up
When it's all to much to bear

Cuz all I think about is you

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a new layout for a certain you
a new layout that reconciles my heart
truly, everything in its time